Hi, a lot of you know about the little ig (Fulton) I found two weeks ago in a tree in Philadelphia. This past long weekend, I decided I have to start the adoption process for him.
Everyone I've talked to has been horrified that I have another ig. I live in a tiny apartment with a roommate, and don't make very much money at all. And although I have been determined not to let it happen, it is already affecting my care of Bud. (Because of buying stuff for Fulton, can't start new enclosure for Bud...not handling either ig enough...either bathing both igs in the morning, or being late to work). I have even been having nightmares where I am walking down the street and there is an injured lizard under every bush and in every tree, and can't help them all. But he's adorable, surprisingly healthy, and seemed to be meant for me, in the way that I found him. I decided I would try to compensate and adjust any way I could.
Things came crashing down this weekend. My boyfriend and his dad assembled the sides and top for an enclosure for Fulton, and brought it down to my apartment, and we put it together. We put it in my room, and it was so big and overwhelming looking, it just seemed to symbolize the huge commitment I would have to make to yet another iguana, and I just knew I couldn't keep him. The guilt is overwhelming, especially after all the hard work everyone I know has done to help me keep him. But I am close to maxing out two credit cards and a bank account, and all I know is that I did not EVER feel this sense of not being able to handle things with Bud. It's always been a pleasure, never a burden.
I despise those people who write bad adoption ads on Green Ig Society- you all know the ones I mean. "Hi, we REeeeeally love our Iggy, but since getting our NEW PUPPY, we JUST don't have the time to give him the attention he needs! It's not that we don't have the room or the money- We're soooo sad, but he simply doesn't fit with our decor anymore, and he's got to go!" I don't want to be one of those people. I know the situation is not the same, but that's what I feel like I'm doing.
I have a beautiful new enclosure for him, and for now, everything will be okay. I will adjust for now, and start the adoption process on the Green Ig Society webpage. I start getting teary when I even think of taking pictures of him for the adoption page. In fact, I have been constantly on the verge of tears since Monday afternoon, when the cage got put together. How do I have any guarantee that I am not sending him someplace much worse than my apartment, even if the adopting owner says all the right things on the application? People change, become lazy, and get new puppies and stupid ideas about not having igs and babies in the same house.
Also, if I have to keep him for years before he finds a new owner, it will only be that much harder to give him away.
I am really heartbroken. I am overwhelmed by keeping him, and feel sick about giving him away. Anything anyone, especially rescuers, can tell me would be great.
-Erin


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Let me know if I can help anymore. I know it's hard to find time... Sometimes You have to MAKE the time.... Maybe less time in front of the P.C. or T.V. OR maybe something else can be switiched around. Ok, I'm done babbling... LOL