my ex and i broke up a month or so ago. i took my meyers parrot, and he kept the indian ringneck blu (i cant hardly type his name). recently he has been capable of full flight. i asked him to please clip his wings. he could run into a window, get smashed in the door, or fly away. he thought it was cool that he could fly. he didnt listen. blu flew away today, i am am beyond sadness...i dont know how to descibe besides i feel as though he is already dead. it is still quite cold here. i know he is so cold, and all alone in the dark. i dont know how he will find food. there is a mob of crows in the neighborhood. i went out with a flashlight, hoping to find him...there are so many ponderosa pines here...it seems futile. he didnt even like me much. but now i realize how much i love him. i hope i can calm down enough to stop crying and sleep. he is so beautiful...he doesnt deserve this. i hope tomorrow to take neo, my meyers out, and maybe i can get him to call, and maybe blu will respond...but i really have no hope.
