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i'm gonna try to type this and not kill my laptop by crying all over it.... my little love, crash, a year and a half old sun conure starting this faint wheezing a few days ago. the very next day i took him off to an avian hospital where they admitted him for observation. he was his usual self, he was eating, and the doctor didn't seem too worried. YESTERDAY, theres a message on my voice mail from the same doctor, saying he seems to be doing worse. they have him on oxygen, and so far, havent actually diagnosed him with anything. they x.rayed him, and it's not an upper respiratory thing, it's his lungs/air sacs. what the hell is wrong with my boy??? we had [god forgive me for this one] a teflon incident about two weeks ago, but the other 3 are fine, plus when i talked to her the first time , she said he looked way too good for teflon. [yes, i'm throwing it all out today!!!] the cages could have been cleaner, so i tore them apart and have vowed to change cage liners every damn day!!! could it be aspergillosis? when i read up on that, it sounded familiar... does anybody have any experience with any respiratory stuff at all? any stories with happy endings? i'm buying a hepa air cleaner this weekend, too. and no more candles or incense downstairs, AT ALL! god, i hope i'm not gonna have to learn a lesson the hardest way of all..... i'm gonna go beat my self up some more.... somebody please tell me something good....

I'm sorry I didn't see this one sooner? Is he still hanging in and hopefully doing any better? We will keep your feathered friends in our thoughts and prayers that he is going to make it.

sighh..... no, he didn't. i still don't know what it was. i got him to the avian hospital, and he never came home. i can't get over so many different parts of it....especially that i dropped him off, and never saw him alive again. i should've closed my shop, i should've slept in the parking lot of the hospital, it's been awful... i had to completely stop thinking about him, talking about him, couldn't see a picture of a sun conure, let alone seeing a real one! i'm no good at grieving, and so i think i just shut it out of my head in hopes that someday, i will have dealt with it behind the scenes, and get over it , without suffering. funny funny me. it just pops up unexpectedly, the missing him, and body slams me. i feel so horribly bad for me, but mostly for olive , his 'sister'. thank god for her. but man, the guilt! i keep thinking i could've done so much better, so much more, and of course, NOW i am. but now he's gone. i did make some mistakes....i wasn't as careful about stupid stuff i should've been more careful about, but you know? the vet didn't know what got him, and the other three kids at home are fine. but i think i'm done with birds. libby and i were thinking about getting a blue fronted, or is it -headed? pionus, but i don't think i can stand the whole falling in love thing again. we just got an italian greyhound pup, and i'm noticing that i'm holding back a bit, out of fear of losing her! it's awful! i probably ought to try and figure out how to 'get over it', but i'm scared of how awful going thru it all is going to be.
and so now, i'm gonna go, cuz i'm tearing up, and i don't wanna ruin my laptop! but thanks for the concern. at least i know the folks on here would never come back with 'well, it was just a bird.' , and you have some idea what it might feel like!
but olive and matisse and juliet are all fine. phew.