Your dealing with a living animal and it will require lots and lots of work and time. Sometimes you simply do not feel like doing it. At the those times when you would rather be doing something else, you have to "want" to make sure your charges are taken care of. Really if you cannot make up your own mind to pick on out, then you do not want one bad enough. It seems like it would be better for you and for a monitor if you wait until you learn to make your own decisions, after all, it will be your monitor.
Please understand, keeping monitors is mostly making decisions, and if you cannot make the first, simplist one, (what to get), then what makes you think you can make the tough ones? I do not mean to offend you, but I can only hope to prevent an unwanted monitor from being neglected.
Try making a scrap book of different monitors, they are millions of pics you can download on the internet, I am sure after a while, you will decide what YOU want. What you really really want and cannot live without.
My last offensive comment, if others are making you decisions, then they should be keeping your monitors, hahahahahahahahahaha, F