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this isn't collared related. only eve should read this. well, eve, i have something to tell you about my dad. well, i haven't told you that he's sick. he has cancer. he isn't much of a BIG GUY anymore. he has the cancer tumor in his asofagus( throat ). he can't eat because of this. he used to weigh 250 lbs. now, he's like 180. well, he got a tube up his nose to feed off in the hospital. then, he got sent to hospice. i haven't seen him lately. he's really weak and can barely talk. i wanted to go see him yesterday, but he didn't want me to see him sick. he said " Come see me tommorow, I promise i'll see you. " he passed away this morning. i never got to see him either. about 7 30 my mom called him and the nurse said they were cleaning him. about five minutes later we got the call. supposedly he bleed during his sleep. today, the nurses said he wasn't talking and was holding on to his bed tight. then, he let go, he died. sorry i didn't sent it on e-mail, eve, but only dad knew how to do that. i figure he'd want you to know. i'm sorry for everyone else who read this, i told you it wasn't for you to read. well, i'm still going to take care of the lizards. i know he wants me to. i miss him a lot. he was only 46, he just got cancer, look like he aged 10 years, curled up and died. anyway, i'm sorry eve, but i have to tell you.

Terrible news, and my heart and prayers you our to you and your family. If you ever need any help with the lizards, we are always here to give you a hand.

John

thanks John. i forgot to include you in that post. he talked to you a lot too. but i believe he's in a better place now. he doesn't have to go through the pain of cancer anymore. when he went to hospice, i think he thought that it was his time, but it wasn't supposed to be. he died without even being there for a day. i'm glad that he's happy now and not suffering, but i'm never seeing him again. it's hard to live with that. i took everything for granted when he was healthy. now, he's gone, and i miss everything about him.

I lost my sister Easter Sunday last year. Not an easy thing to go through. Feel free to visit her site. She suffered through this for about a year and a half. sounds like you dad went peacefully in the night.

John
My sister's webpage...

First let me say how very sorry I am for you, your sister and your Mom.

I can't even believe it ! You hit me from out of nowhere with this SHOCKING news! God, I can't believe hes gone.

I feel so totally NUMB right now, I got to know you guys so quick and we all hit it off.

I had talked with your Dad alot, but stopped during the winter, as he said he was getting off the computer to spend more time with your Mom and you guys !

This is quite upsetting, because its so shocking, so fast, he was so young, and seemed so full of life. He was a good guy Mike alot of fun.

I will miss him, funny, I have been wondering lately why he was not talking to me, along with you, as he always does. :0(

Now I know why! Cancer sucks, it gets the best people, My Mom my Dad, My 46 year old big brother, your Dad, and Johns, sister, and countless other great people.

Please tell your sister and your Mom (and you know your included) how terribly sorry I am and we ALL are on here, all the people he talked with.

Remember too, how much he loved you , and your sister, Always know how much you meant to him. He always said how happy you both made him. And how he loved doing the lizard thing with you!

ANYTHING, you need to know, or whatever, ALWAYS ask here Mike, we all will try and help, If ya ever need homes for babies, whatever you need to know, you will have help ! I PROMISE !

I'm so SORRY ! My heart and prayers are with you all !

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Eve

it seems like yesterday he was the healthiest one in the family, big and really strong. my whole family just can't believe it. this day has been the hardest of my life and it just happened too quick. i miss him. i can't believe it, either. my big strong dad withered away down to nothing and died. it feels like a nightmare, but i'm not waking up he didn't have a lot of time with me. i regret not using the time i had wisely. he's being cremated. i just can't believe he's gone........forever. no matter what i do....he's gone. i'll be better in a few days.......but when your dad dies when your twelve.......that can depress you for a lifetime. i no he's watching me ...and he's with me........he just seems so far away. i'm taking off school for a few, so eve i have time to answer your questions. i asked dad if he had any bricks for the laying of the eggs, when he was sick, and he said i don't know look around the house. that was one of the last phone calls i had with him. i talked about frigging lizards to my dad when he's sick, like he cares about them when he has cancer. i feel bad for that. he was a really good dad. i'm just stunned at the thought that he's gone. it wasn't supposed to be, him dying at 46. he left me physically, but he's here with me mentally. i do not believe everything happens for a reason. there was no reason for my dad to die of cancer when i'm only 12 and he was only 46.........no reason

an answer for these sad things happening. We can ask why, but it does not help or change things.

When people we love die and leave us we sometimes feel cheated out of time with them, we even get mad at them for leaving us.
We sometimes get mad at God for taking them too !

But if it was to happen this way, thank God, he could leave, and be relieved of his suffering. Hes great now, better than ever, its just super hard on you, and your family because hes not there.

I lost my Dad at 16, my Mom in my late 20's and a big brother 2 years ago. ALL Lung cancer ! But I know they are with me, I have many awesome memories, that are mine forever, fun great memories, no one can take from me or you either.

Also Mike I don't think he minded one bit that you asked him about the collareds while he was sick. He liked the lizards alot and told me often what a wonderful job you do taking care of them.

Hey Mike, you said earlier your Dad was the only one who could do email. Why don't you try and get an email, so people can talk with you. You have aol ? Look for opening email account its easy and will explain. TRY !

I would like to email you my number. Your Dad had it, but who knows where it is!

Get your feelings out buddy, dont hold them in, but know hes FINE, its the people he left that are in pain now,

NOT HIM !!!

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Eve

I lost my mother to cancer when I was ten. I feel for you. Everything will be ok tho.. Promise