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Sometime between 4-10 a.m. my leo died. Now all was well this morning, i swear i held back emotions and tears. Walking and finnally reaching my local park i left her in a secluded area.. Only wished to grant her freedom in the wild for once in her lifetime. So i journeyed back to my home when i just burst. The veal of guilt overwhelmed me. I just couldn't control it. Im in the stage of thinking whether or not to keep my reptiles. And i feel bad for my other cow, she had to see my other leo slowly sicken and soon die. Particularly i grieve for this loss because she was the first reptile i had. I would have done anything to see her run across the tank as she did before this summer. She was the most precious leo i had, and i bought her at 12 dollars... The name i gave her when i bought her was reject, the reason is because the breeder of the herp show which was 2 years ago, had a batch of leos that lacked desighn and called them rejects, for their lack of desighn. I only wish i had my sis for support. She sure would have got me out of this stage. And if the loss of my leo wasn't bad enough in 1 year i may leave for college, They may not let me take reptiles. And i have nobody to give t.l.c to my herps.. I was so happy 2 years ago when i was fresh out of middle school those were one of the best days. Now im filled with hate and distrust. Pilled with a departure of my only dear and close sister and true friends, situations to concur that seem to have no solution. I only wish i could go back. Music used to serenade me but now music has no effect on me any more, it doesn't bring me delight any more as it did before..I try so hard to keep back the tears and anger but i guess they heave strengh which i can't control. I appologise if i caused any sadness to any reader, i guess this is the only way to deal with this situation.

It must be hard to lose such a good friend. I couldn't imgaine my life without my lil buddies. Hope you get through this rough time soon. Best wishes.
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Just Another Herp Crazy Person

0.2.0 Leopard Geckos - Lea, Cleo [4 eggs cooking so could be 0.2.4])
0.1.0 Bearded Dragon - Loki
0.0.1 Fire Skink - Blaze

Granted she was only a hatchling and I never really knew her but she was my little baby. I was fine until I had to bury her, when I almost started crying. Just because one animal dies doesn't mean you can't take care of your pets well. Death happens and it hurts those who are left behind but Death comes to help those who are suffering. I know how you must feel now...just remember, you tried your best and there is no reaon you should feel guilty. Its not as if you wished this to happen, it just did. I am so sorry for your loss, but don't give up hope. The pain we feel when a creature we love dies, is the price of love.

Cleo
1:1 leos (6 eggs cooking)

Im just so sad soon ill be off to gainsville in about a year and i may need to give away all my herps. I just seem to be attatched.
Now i dont know wether to buy my other cow a friend. She looks lonely. Im not sad of the death of my leo its the seperation i put on my healthy 70 g. cow. Shes lonely... What do you guys think should i buy a friend for her or not. I just feel shes lonely in a 20 gallon all by her self.

Sure go for it. It is hard to deal with a thing like that sometimes a new freind helps so much. When you leave maybe they will let you have herps. If not I am sure you can find someone on here who will take fabulous care of them. How long you going to school for?
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Even if your on the right track you will get run over if you just sit there

its that if i do purchase another leo i cant replace reject. but i just want to keep my other cow happy. but if i do buy another ill probably have to get used to the newer one. Gesh i cant make up my mind... It was easier dealing with death when i was younger, my parents would tell me my dogs went to a farm. I would believe them.

a new one will grow on you really fast once you see the antics and personality that is differnt and goes with every leo. Wish you luck in whatever decision you make.
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Even if your on the right track you will get run over if you just sit there

The leo probably just didn't understand why her roommate would not get up and then disappeared. Reptiles typically aren't "social" creatures so I don't think she will be too hurt by this. If you get another leo then when you go to college it will just be another pet to find a home for and will cause you more emotional pain.

Cleo
1:1 leos (6 eggs cooking)

I will all heal in time, death of a loved pet is hard to overcome especially when the pet is actually one of the family. I bout lost it when my little squirrel dog Lexi got hit and killed last fall. I missed work for 2 days over it. It is ok to just cry your eyes out it helps releive the pain. Be thankfull you still have your other little darling.
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Even if your on the right track you will get run over if you just sit there

When I lose a beloved pet I take the day off from school and sit on the couch and watch movies all day in my pajamas with my big golden retriever, Merlin, sitting on the couch with me (even though he's not supposed to be up there). Actually, I normally end up watching movies like The Patriot, Moulin Rouge, and other really sad movies which gets me crying even more!!!

Cleo
1:1 leos (6 eggs cooking)

I am very sorry to hear about ur situation. I have to agree with cleopatra though, I am sure that ur leo doesn't mind living on its own. Leopard geckos basically tolerate eachother, and it is ideal to keep them solitary. If you have to go away soon, it will be easier to find a home for one gecko than two. I also think that if you see your other gecko thrive without reject then you will find some comfort in seeing that its cage mate can get over the loss just as you can. *I am in highschool and will be facing ur same problem in the next couple years, which is why I have to limit my collection of geckos so I don't leave my little sister with too much of a burden. It sucks, but we will all get over it. Good luck, and be positive!