Don't beat yourself up over it. My advice is consider the snake gone forever. That doesn't mean you can't continue looking for it. Hopefully it will show up. The rare occasion I have a snake get sick, I am beside myself for about five minutes, then I come to terms with the fact that the snake may not pull through. In my mind I write it off as no longer a part of my collection so that I can alleviate myself of any emotional attachment and grief. It is much easier for me to deal with the situation that way. Don't get me wrong, I will treat it and they usually pull through. I would suggest the same philosophy to you regarding your escapee. Take it easy on yourself. Regards, Rusty