I see I'm not the only one who had it bad... Not to sound mean, but it kindda makes me feel normal again. I guess you know what they say...misery loves company. I was admit/taken to 51/50 3 times in short interval. My parents had to call 911 because I was out of control. And The medication that I take, which is called Abilify, slows my metabolism down and it makes me sleepy all the time. I have to take 200 mg of vitamin E every other week to help prevent uncontrollable muscle spasms on my face for people who take bipolar and schizophrenic medication long term; I have to take the med the rest of my life. The only thing that keeps me focus is my turtles and lizards.